Today it was about staying still in the eye of the hurricane--it included something that actually fit with previous notions, actually. Jeff had us imagining a central line that built with glow with each inhale, and slid back down with each exhale. This was actually rather like my (as I recall, quite successful!) sound-based (me making it, that is) practice a while ago, where I was imagining logs fed through a saw to fit the noise, starting from full and whittling down through the exhale. It was pretty helpful, as my brain seems to like the mind's eye view as a focal point, so I was pretty pleased.
- I appreciate that, despite an emotional reaction, I was able to pull my brain out of it and think through things. It wasn't perfect (as I was caught doing it, I guess), but I was still getting there. Something near where I actually want to be myself. So: nice!
- I can improve on this by continuing to practice and finding that point of calm--and maybe practice finding it in those moments more quickly, instead of being dragged by external events to wherever I end up.
- I appreciate that I was patient with myself through that experience: even though I knew I'd had that strong emotional reaction and probably reacted with it a bit, I moved forward and tried to keep finding my way outside of it. The grace of having "fallen for it" first thing was not unheeded or unsent. Well done, me =)
- I can improve on this by remembering it's not a crime to "fall for it", or a failing. It's just something I want to improve, and practice makes perfect and all that!
- I appreciate that I accepted my timeline last night meant I was not going to get in a run this morning, and that I think I've got myself focused enough today to make sure everything gets done in time to get me to bed early enough to do it.
- I can improve on this by making sure I do, in fact, get stuff done tonight--and not hold it against myself if something else becomes more important in the moment =)
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