I've decided on the 30-day with Jeff Warren + the "daily calm", since it's essentially "here's 10-15 to meditate". That way, I'm not inundating myself with methodologies or what have you.
Today, Jeff spoke of the "concentration gym", and pointed to the various "homebases" people use. I know I struggle here: am I trying too hard on one that doesn't work for me? Am I giving up too easily one one that does? So I wander back and forth a lot and it's kind of terrible. I mean, he says right here: pick one and stick with it, whichever feels best, and then just hone it with practice. So, I'm going with hearing, because I think it may actually work pretty well for me. I was tormented by the idea of trying to do it while someone actively tries to talk to me--but that seems a little like searching out a poor circumstance I think, so I'm leaving it be. Obviously, this fits pretty well with my me-ditation of musical listenings every evening anyway!
- I appreciate that sometimes I do have valuable information and I know it--for all those times I feel like I know nothing or am useless or all that other super-helpful stuff, I sometimes really do know what I'm talking about. Today I was actually pretty good about choosing when to interject and provide knowledge--it was for the purposes of moving things forward and getting things established, which I'm kind of proud of.
- I can improve on this with a continued interest in looking for the right times to do it, as well as keeping myself on track to speak up when I know something. Finely tuning the balance to all that is fine, but speak up, me! =)
- I appreciate that I'm a lot more relaxed on a lot of things. My neurosis around strangers has mellowed to some extent: whenever I saw a woman about, I'd get lost in hopes and dreams and such that she'd notice me and I'd get flattered and--actually that was about it, which seemed reasonably harmless, but I'm getting better at just letting whatever is...be. So if she does: neat! If not, so what?
- I can improve on this by keeping a relaxed mind about these things. Trying to push, nudge, or identify a response tends to just sort of burst the bubble like touching it, after all =)
- I appreciate my willingness to keep at running, and try to be smart about it. I ran again today, but I moderated it given how sore I've been lately. That's kind of a two-fer, I guess? I'm glad I'm still on it, but also glad I'm not murdering my legs to death =)
- I can improve on this by making sure I stick with it, and don't kill myself in the process =)
Today's album: Dead Man's Bones by Dead Man's Bones
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