Mindfulness Day 9

Almost forgot today! Whoops! (and did forget yesterday...)

I ran a bit late on everything since I lost power today, so it all went a bit out of whack.

I continued on the 30-day program of "How to Meditate" and am appreciating the congenial tones of the speaker still. I threw on the "daily calm" and it all worked out pretty nicely. I'm doing better, I think, at remembering to "soft smile" my way through the sessions, hoping (maybe ridiculously, but still doing it!) that it might just fall permanent. (After that, maybe I can start on my posture...)

• I appreciate that I was able to take up running as a new form of cardio exercise in the lands of quarantine, to run myself ragged the first day (with sore quads and everything!), and then to pick it back up the next day.
• I can improve on this by giving myself a dang rest tomorrow. I'm shuffling around like my joints don't work anymore because of how stiff I am. Shouldn't over do it!
• I appreciate that I was able to have a conversation with someone that was more direct than before. I liked the idea of just addressing things and getting them done with--something I've always liked, but was not great at getting to the thrust of out of fear of consequences. It went pretty well! Good on me for giving it a go!
• I can improve on this by keeping it in mind for conversations with others that might be more risky; it's always possible that I can overdo it, so I should also keep in mind the nuances and vagaries of individuals in the process.
• I appreciate that I've taken a sort of shrugging amusement to some of the more confusingly frustrating things that occasionally still wander my brain. It's not dismissal or avoidance (thankfully!), but it is a greater acceptance of why my stance might be confusing to someone else, and thus lead to a completely inverted response--I'm controlling my responding to her, not trying to get a break from her existence, after all.
• I can improve on this one by moderating that amusement, or maybe even by tempering or re-purposing it: letting it bring me through the difficulties and complexities in its levels of shrugging acceptance. Here's hoping!

Today's Album: Fragrant World by Yeasayer